Life is wonderful

♣ Friday, August 31, 2007 ♣

"Which one would you want, a doctor who holds your hand while you're dying or a doctor who ignores you when you're getting better? of course it sucks when your doctor ignores you while you die."

- Dr. Gregory House, House MD

Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls - J. Campbell

Ang gulo ko lately,may times na ang saya-saya ko... Then may times na ewan. haha labo.. Parang ung feeling na kahit steady lang mood ko may kulang pa ren.. hindi ko sure,basta may kulang.. Pero as much as possible hindi ko na ineentertain ung ganung feeling.. Mas ok naman na magfocus sa mga things na makakapagpasaya sayo diba..Like I always say, there's no point in being negative about everything in life ayt?. .Dapat laging optimistic.. :D

I'm not a tease. I'm just a reminder of what you can't have.

conservative babe :)

11:19 PM

♣ Tuesday, August 28, 2007 ♣

Wahahaha Just woke up..10pm na shet..Bumangon lang sana ko just to eat dinner pero nag-online na rin,5 days na ko di nagoonline eh..haha argh,na-stiff neck ata ko.. nangawit sa kotse ni ann.. haha Sarap kase ng tulog eh.. lol Anyway,roadtrip and inuman with glai,nic,keni,lindz and ann sa batangas(again!).. Met up with glai,keni and ann at DAHSC.. Nauna kame ni nic, yey!hindi kame na-late! haha accomplishment? NOT. haha Mejo matagal din kameng nag-antay for others to show up.. Pero oks lang,kakasawa na ren magpa-antay ng tao,ok na ung paminsan minsan kame naman ang mag-antay..(feeling!) haha Nic&i were supposed to go to keni's house,para samahan shang sunduin si glai.. Pero present kase si tto,tta and kuya sa haus niya kaya NO na lang.. haha Nakakatakot kase iba pinaalam ni keni,baka tanungin pa kame mali mali pa masagot namen.. haha So yun,finally keni&glai showed up.. Waited na lang for ann na napaka-drawing haha lasheng na sha nun dumating.. Hindi ako takot na magdrive sha kahet mejo lasing kase sanay na sha, and sanay na rin ako haha Wag lang kameng matutulog para gising kameng mamamatay hahaha bad joke! Sinundo namen nindy sa dorm nya.. In fairness ang aga namen dumating sa batangas,12am ata andun na kame,before kase lagi naliligaw si ann(talo pa sha ni maniya pagdating sa directions haha) kaya inaabot kame ng almost 5 hours sa byahe.. haha Katakot lang last night kase kala namen na-engkanto na kame,haha Meron kase kameng nadaanan na super habang road na parehong pareho lang ung mga puno chuva,lagi pa namen nakikita ung pico de loro signboard na yun haha Babaliktarin na sana namen damit namen eh.. haha So yun,kahapon ambilis ng byahe,kahet dami namen stop over.. After 2hours,finally we arrived at the place,occupied the same kubo.. Paluto muna ng food,we all rested for a while..Then kumain na,pos inuman na.. haha Hindi namen naubos ung gran ma,naka 2 bottles lang kame, pero ung coke simot na simot haha Ayun,inom. fun. inom. fun.ann and lindz were both so hyper! fun. fun. fun. seashore.inom. uwak. picture. laughtrip. jokes. ngongo trip. fun! Pagbalik namen sa kubo namen(yuck inangkin?haha), naglaro pa kame ni glai&lindz ng tong its and 123 pass,lagi akong talo KASE,honestly,secret lang ah,hindi ko na mabasa ng maayos ung mga cards HAHA Promise naduduling na ko nung time na yun.. and worst,ung talo,shot ulet.. Pero h2o lang.. HAHA Naubos namen ung water kaya kinabukasan,tubig dagat na lang ininom namen.. jowk! haha We called it a night at 5AM...Siksikan kameng lahat sa iisang bed..Woke up at around 9 am..Breakfast.ligo(ann&lavs lng).chikahan.picture.fun.Then around 11am,umalis na kame..Puro stop over sa tagaytay,pag my magandang view,picture picture..4pm na kame nakarating ng DA kase hinilo na naman kame ni ann,kung san san kame dinaan.haha Ai,panalo pala ung game namen nila knet,ann&lindz sa car,haha ung puro questions na kailangan ang sagot question din,talo sila ann&lindz..Naka 2 consequences sila,first was kailangan naka-bra lang sila for 1 minute,haha nagddrive pa si ann ah..Si lindz asa front seat din..haha Then 2nd consequence,nagkiss sila sa lips for 1min den ata.. haha brokeback? ahaha Ayun..sayang lj wala ka,pero we understand naman..And si bjoun naman mejo may drama sa buhay,self pity mode, pero naiintindihan namen,ouch lang kase parang hindi true friend tingin mo samen,pero oks lang,maaayos din lahat..Sama na kayo next time..happiness with you guys is too big for words alone.. Sana lang next time complete attendance na ang bjouns..If my memory serves me right,last night was my 4th or 5th time na sa batangas kasama sila ann,pero never pa nacomplete ang bjouns..Sana makumpleto na tayo,kahet hindi sa batangas,hotel na lang ulit.. orayt?? Osha,hafta go,need to catch up on some Zzzzz's,haven't gotten enough sleep yet,kahit kagigising ko lang..haha sweet dreams people!

conservative babe :)

10:09 PM

♣ Wednesday, August 22, 2007 ♣

I,woman

The weaker sex, they call me, but I disagree. My strength is beyond what muscles could conjure, because it lies not in my vessel but in the spirit that it carries. I may be delicate and fragile that you feel compelled to protect me, but I am strong because I am flexible. I can bend with the wind and it cannot break me.

I will cry when I am lonely or hurt, and you may find that pathetic, but I am not ashamed. My emotions may be clearer to see, but it is only because I am true to myself and that is where my strength comes from.

I am a woman and I am a person. I can think and feel like anyone else. I am no less than a man and no more than a man, because He is not the measure of me. And yet, I know that in a world where He does not exist, so will I cease to be a Woman. For what purpose would the rooster’s existence be, if there were no hens to be roosters about? In a world where there are no hens, he would just be a chicken. I am a woman because you are a man. We define each other like night and day and we hold hands at twilight.

I am a woman and my value is not in my virginity. For what is virginity but a hymen unbroken, superficial like the face? It does not necessarily equate to love. When it is broken by whatever circumstance, it does not mean I am less the woman I was. I deserve to be loved with or without it, because I am a woman and I am more than my hymen. The fact that there is Woman means that the Maker destined her to be penetrated, fated the hymen to be broken. Artfully, cunningly, lovingly she was designed for that purpose, so that Love becomes the wonderful adventure that it is. But remember that is not her only purpose. So when in time from lover’s nest I wake and find that barrier breached, take no pride in your conquest for I am not the spoils of war. Though you have broken what you thought was my gate, you have not broken me.

I am indecisive, they say; that I cannot make up my mind. Perhaps this is so. But remember that I look at the world in a different way. I see the things you may choose to ignore. I can help you see beyond black and white. If you let me. They also insist I am weak, a Maria Clara who faints at the sight of blood. But remember that I bleed with every cycle of the moon. I bleed when my flower opens to bring life to the world. I bleed the first time I make love. In fact, experts would say I have a higher threshold for pain. So you see, I am much stronger than people think.

True, I am not perfect. Sometimes you may find me infuriatingly complicated. At other times I am plain and simple. Sometimes I can be the most alluring creature you have ever beheld and then suddenly you wonder where that creature went. But I will not apologize for my imperfections, only for my faults.

I do not believe in Adam and Eve. I believe in their symbolism of you and me, but not in them. I do not believe that I am your downfall. I do not believe that I am the reason for your failure. I do not believe I was created simply to test your faith. Although I could be a temptress if I see it to my advantage, just like you could be a snake if you choose to be. We are human beings and we are complicated that way. Can you imagine what it must have been like for the First Man when he laid eyes on the First Woman for the very first time?

Most of the time, you may not understand me. It is perhaps my nature not to be understood by you at least. You may find yourself constantly wondering what makes me smile. What makes me cry? Where could you touch me to make me tremble? What must you do to hear me laugh? You may even find yourself simply savoring the act of watching me sleep, and then wonder how I manage to captivate you despite doing nothing at all. For that I have even been called a witch in the history books. In fact, up to this day, people could only give labels to things they cannot understand. You will want to study me, search my eyes for answers you know you may never find. All the great artists did not become so without first exploring my nakedness and transforming me into their own idea of what I should be. Mona Lisa with her cunning smile. Aphrodite emerging from her shell. I am your muse. But no matter how you try, you may never capture the true essence of me because I am deeper than the ocean. To be honest, I myself have not fully explored my own depths.

But not to worry, I think that we will never forever be each other’s mystery. If you prove yourself worthy, you are more than welcome to discover me. Consider it an invitation.

Lastly, if you have any complaints about the woman that I am, please address it to my Manufacturer and I am sure that the genderless being of my Maker will tell you that I was made to be exactly as I am.

-GT

conservative babe :)

11:38 PM

♣ Tuesday, August 14, 2007 ♣

whoooooooooot??? stalker?!! who?? HAHAHAHA mygollywow!

Anyhoo.

It felt so good but you know it's not right.

Wele leng. =D

conservative babe :)

2:35 AM

♣ Wednesday, August 01, 2007 ♣

I'm sick... huhu..bad virus!!! argh.. :(

conservative babe :)

1:29 AM